22nd
Love the Journey
Choose. How does one do this exactly if one does not know even what they are choosing between? Does that mean you do not have direction? Or does it mean you are not in touch with yourself? Subliminal messages seem to be popping up more often than I can ever remember. I’m not sure if this is because the universe is trying to tell me something or if it is because I am desperately searching for meaning and answers. Right now it is safe to say that I am going through about fifty internal conflicts. This may be normal for some but for some time I have considered myself a master at conquering these conflicts. Pretend they do not exist and they will go away. Awesome, right? I don’t know if maturing, growing older and hopefully wiser has contributed to the need to solve these issues and become a better person. Maybe the messages were always there but because I had already solved my problem there was no need to notice them. Choose is a strong, hard word. This is my biggest internal struggle lately. I feel as if I am at a point were I am choosing between being brave or relinquishing control. I can choose to be the person who nabs every opportunity and runs with it or I can choose to be the person who finds what works and sticks with it. I often whine to myself about how I wish I was doing something better and writing more. Then I wonder if the reason I have nothing to say is because my life is so boring. Looking back at just this year I have to laugh at the notion that my life is boring. So I am choosing to write. I am choosing to try and I am choosing to listen.
